I was wondering if people on the spectrum could see, feel, sense, and get to know
more about others and their situations than was commonly accepted.
I have long
had an ability to know exactly where people are coming from, which a geometric
mental system I live with - affectionately called my 'signals' - informs me
about.
Technically,
I am not supposed to know such things; as an aspie I am supposed to be lacking
sufficient communication skills, with trouble in handling conversations. We see
things in a straightforward way, steered by 'black and white' intention and
thinking, but I, possibly like some others, pick things up from people in a rather
computerised way, perhaps even a very animal-like way (animals are not only
aspies but are also like computers? Yes, they are! But you'll have to see more
in my book to know why I say this).
To
give an example of my geometric state of mind, if someone talks to me about a
cup that is on a table to their left and they're looking to their right, it
isn't the case that they are really talking about the cup to their left but are
really thinking about something that is to their right - to the right of their
mind! It is basically nothing to do with the cup. Here, within their mind,
something else is going on, which I'm expected to acknowledge; something's
taking place in their mind or thoughts occupying them, and my own left/right
geometric mind is picking up on it.
My
signals jump about in my mind, from left to right and back again; they also
move up and down, from the front of my mind, to the back, side to side, all
kinds of directions. It is a complete
geometric world of shapes coming alive and transforming themselves into
squares, circles and triangles, letting me know where people are coming from.
(They also transform into stone, water and mist - but that's another story and
too much to go into here).
This
system though promptly informs me that someone isn't necessarily talking about
the cup on the table to the left; but not only this, they will also inform me
about how I am supposed to react, by pretending that we are in fact talking
about the cup on the table to the left, because that is what we are expected to
be doing! It's confusing. Everyone's confused, but I'm probably more confused
than most!
I am
fully expected to honour the cryptic messaging such a person is giving me - or
the cup - which is difficult in my case: 'this is how you're supposed to react
in this particular situation', my signals will be saying as they're trying to
put me straight. Without my signals - well, it's like a dog without its nose -
I don't know how I would have fared where communication is concerned. I might
well have been completely flummoxed as to how the human race behaves and
reacts. The human race is a weird species to say the least sometimes!
I am
of the opinion that every spectrum individual - or at least this spectrum
individual - sees, feels, senses and gets to know far more of what is going on
around them than is generally believed, particularly as we see things
literally, and we therefore we see beneath the layers that are communicated
every day in the world. It's more a bombardment of too much information that I
am subjected to, rather than too little. Thank goodness for my signals.
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